But please allow me to do this...

I'm sure some going to wonder what's happening and since I don't really have no reason to hide it (or else I wouldn't write it here), I'll just simply say that I'm officially single again after 8 years.

At first, I  had so much mixed feeling about it. Torn being angry, sad, digusted but now, that it start to sink in, I feel very very very relieved... Now it's done. I'm FINALLY single again...that's all I have been worrying about until easter vanished in the space of few minutes.

Ok I'm just a bit hurt about one thing though. The way it was done. I was supposed to be THE ONE to initiate it since I already took my decision but I was MOSTLY supposed to go see him and talk about it properly in person and NOT do it over the phone because after such a long of relashionship, I though that I least I...sorta owed him this. That is was just more respectful, more human in a way to do it like this... Hard to explain but maybe I was in the wrong ? Maybe I should have just done it just for the sake of doing it without caring about such things... ?

And realising that I was the only one thinking this way is not a pleasant feeling but I guess it's just my pride talking here huh ? Dunno...

Oh well it's just details... I should focus on the most important, that we reached the same conclusion. I'm glad to think that finally, we are going to separate in good term without us being akward about it... That we finally going to be able to move on instead on staying with eachother and not being happy about it...

Yes. Ok I think the idea of being single have sink in a bit more... It still a bit strange but yes it have. I can without a doubt say that I'm glad now. Maybe tonight I will think otherwise when it will be the time to sleep. Maybe I will still have few days where I'll be down because I'll still think a bit about it...

But it's really time for me to move on now. And you know what ? That's already what I'm planning to do !

I'm planning to enjoy this year, do thing I wanted to do for a long time and I already planned more things ahead and think about moving outside France for a little while. Don't know yet where. Don't know yet how long (well it will mostly depends of the visa and the destination ) but the key word right now is : FREEDOM

So please just one thing... Just don't say sorry...ok ?
Because I'm really not XD